The Lord has begun to stir a passion in my heart. Don't get me wrong, I am very passionate about God but I feel He wants me to take it to the next level. A place of only fearing Him, not holding back, and not trying to justify why I don't do everything He calls me to. Complete sacrifice.
This would mean feeling very awkward in a lot of situations and doing things we are nervous about. This pull has to do with Long Beach State. I feel that the Lord wants to start a movement here. I am currently sitting in the library and as I look around, I wonder what will happen to all these students. Will they ever come to know Christ? Will they always feel a duty to pursue worldly knowledge and success? What if no one ever has to nerve to tell them about Jesus?
This could very well mean that they will not go to heaven. That they will perish for eternity because I didn't want to get a little uncomfortable. Something that begins to surface is wanting people to like me. If I go around telling people about God, and doing what He actually calls us too, then I will not be liked by most and probably made fun of or worse. But who really cares right? I have Jesus and that is more than enough. So why do I continue to doubt and hold back?
These are just thoughts running through my head. I think they all hold some truth in them though. Like if we truly believed in hell and all that is, wouldn't we do everything possible to stop people from going there? I would never want anyone to go there but yet I am willing to just walk by someone who has a real chance of going there.
Its all a process to learn how to go about these things. Relying on God's power and not trying to do it on our own. I definitely need to spend time in prayer about all this and see how the Lord wants to move in it. I know it is all in His timing.
"remember this: Whoever turns a sinner from the error of his way will save him from death and cover over a multitude of sins." James 5:20